reasons, like this im spillin in this sentence here... and 'internal dialogue', thoughts, worries, even just acting based on rationality, or logic in general... I've found it's been an unavoidable eventuality to find it a pain in the ass; I was raised to 'act responsibly' and 'do the right thing' and right now my parents' love for me is all that I have, holding fast, in that corner.
It's a double-edged catch-22, my parents' love, and support for me, because meanwhile, on the other extreme (as the pendulum swings) I have the unforgettable, undeniable, firsthand experiences of my life, soaked into muscle memory and bleeding through all I am, and was; I can't deny either;
~the void~ {the dark wind; death; raw energy; power; attention; experience; reality~}, and-
~the light~ with its damnable insistence on parading momentary victories in reason's [lines circling into spirals, dripping into helixes and onward] self-perpetuating battlefield.
The way I just thought of it (hypocrisy and truth- get used to it) is like---
oh hell yes homey at mcdonalds, my nyugga~ ahhh dang light in my life is too good to me man. ahhh frick~!
The way I just thought of it (hypocrisy and truth- get used to it) is like---
oh hell yes homey at mcdonalds, my nyugga~ ahhh dang light in my life is too good to me man. ahhh frick~!
