Gonna bury all our troubles in the sand~

I have to make 400 bucks by December... but I'm going to rehab October 3rd. I'll be there til the end of the month. Which gives me like 4 weeks to make 400 lol. And I just lost my job at the dollar tree cuz of... well I would say my bitch ex, but... it's my life, things happen to it usually as a result of my own actions or insolence. I should've known that bitch woulda done what she did, and when she did it, I shouldn't have been surprised.

Ahh well. One door closes, another opens eh. The good thing is I'm writing a lot now. Err, a lot compared to how much I used to.

There's a couple girls that are pretty close, that I can reach out and grab, but... I don't know what it is. I just ain't into it right now. If something's gonna come, it'll come to me. I know I'm gonna regret that later on, when I am so far from anyone that I'll wish I was where I am right now lol. But. Such is the nature of my feelings eh.

Ohhhhh yeah. Gurren Laggen. Or something like that. People tell me I should watch it... so tonight, after my writing and shit, I'ma indulge myself in some anime. Idk. It's supposed to be pretty evocative. Err yeah lol.

Well, as always. much love~

My Wild Love

hanging out at the library today, got a little bit of soda and time left, then I'm heading out. Been staying relatively sober and overall it's been beneficial for me... not to say it hasn't been one of the hardest things I've done in my life. And what makes it worse is all this shit going on on the side...

I miss my ex a lot, I mean it really fuckin hurts not being with her. I wish things didn't degenerate like they did... I also wish she didn't cheat on me, beat me, and try and get me arrested multiple times.

So I don't know. It seems like the direction my life is taking is one of doing what is right for me despite it being uncomfortable. I just don't know... I wanna make my life better, that's all I know. I will do it no matter the cost.

I've been reconsidering the military, but I don't think they'd take me lol. We'll see... first I gotta get this debt payed off.

Despite all that's going on, I still have a lot of love to give and I send it out to all you cats who give a damn about me, whoever and wherever you are.