Fuck You Loud Dude at NAU Cline Library, with your donkey laugh

So... today is a pretty weird day man.

hmmm....

sometimes, i fuckin wonder, man....

I swear these fags at NAU are like watching the public users on their terminals and just talkin shit all day. The cats behind the counter, i mean.

Yeah paranoid-delusional-skitzophrenia is on the rise today... I swear I saw my old Drill Sargeant. Or a dude that looked exactly like him at Jack in the Box...

God I just need some sleep...

I need some resolution, really. That's what I need. I can't stand this uncertainty... it's driving me nuts. I'm gonna apply to other colleges. Fuck it, i'll do classes online if I have to.

Fuck CCC

So,CCC won't allow me to go to college there again unless I pay for six credit hours OUT OF MY OWN POCKET?! So I can't even get into community college?!

I'm heading up there right now. I'm tired, I'm pissed, and I swear to God I'm gonna have someone's ass in the can before I fuckin lay down to sleep today.

Damn these headphones are too small

I'm doing a lot better... every day gets brighter and brighter =)

I really feel like the light is returning to my light, ahh it's such a great feeling. God dang, maybe it's just the seasons but whateer it is, Lord, I'm grateful. And I won't take it for granted, no, I'm gonna appreciate this every minute and use it as best I can.

I'm gonna hang out with my Christian friend Tracy today- she's so outgoing and honest, and positive, it's really nice. I totally dig her 'tude- I realize in a lot of ways she is blind to the beauty of certain things, as most of us are, and I realize a lot of it has to do with her hardcore christian upbringing. But that same Christian upbringing has given her a lot of values that I can dig, and honestly they're ones we both share, regardless of my own somewhat non-existant (religious) upbringing. Despite not being raised with any one specific religion prevalent- which is pretty righteous and I totally respect my parents for it, honestly that's the best freakin way to raise your kid, is not brainwashing their asses (then there are those that could say 'hey not teaching them is a form of brainwashing as well' and that's when I get up and smack you across the face cuz you're obviously in my brain and it's a dream and it's time to end this EXTREMELY long runon sentence omigerrd) SO (no ritalin today i'm afraid!) yeah despite being a blank state religiously and just learning from experience, I can digg the morals we do share.

Religious zealots are just as bad as faithless, dry atheists in my opinion. Extremes are only good for one thing- and that's to give support in moments of extreme duress, when all else fails. Hopefully shit never gets to that point.

The same thing could be said about economics; yes, it is good to have a few major-ass billionaire industrial giants and what have you. But they shouldn't be so for-profit and unshakeable as to be unable to give back in moments they are needed, like depressions such as we are 'supposedly' in. I don't think calling a shallow grave with shit being piled on top of it a depression, really, just poor decision-making. But you know me, I'm not an educated lobbyist, what could I know. >_>

Yeaaaaah it's one of them days baby.

So much love to all you cats out there~ keep on keepin on in your own weird ways~ don't forget to love the ones ya dont and slap a politician if ya see one. We could use more of both~

shim slady

So last night I had a pretty intense vision... A vision of all my friends fulfilling the roles of Castaneda's characters.

We could definitely shoot a freakin Castaneda movie- it hasn't been done yet but it should've been done a long time ago.

Casting will be uploaded in a further update... no one reads this shit so I can imagine whatever I want lol. This might be pretty ridiculous~ I'ma love it tho~

I miss my old comrades~ compadres` mi amor~

Well what the fuck.
Don Juan-
Don Genaro-
Nestor
Pablito
Eligio

alright I'm at the library, and I am feeling like the fourth of july....
You know that feeling when you just let everything go, and let the world push you..?
Well I did.. I totally let go man... and the world pushed me gently, and so beautifully and tenderly that I miiiiiiiight just forgive it for stuff in the past. lol. (Yeah right)xD

>_>_>_>_>

Point of the matter is i'm pretty blasted. I've never felt like this, i could almost cry with the reality of the ruthlessly raw rimming energy of life that flows fluidly through my shit like a wilford brimley commercial. Yeah shit is goin nuts in chaz land. Anyways man (BEETIS!) lol

Bless you cats out there~

We all need it~

And lord knows we wanna give it~


to yo momma! badoing doing doing! xD

Branching Out

I'm looking to branch out and expand my stuff... or rather, consolidate and maximize the effectiveness of a particular service. It's either I use Google like a whore, or wordpress, or do like I've been doing and have a spread of sites. It'd be easier if all my stuff was consolidated, like into one account... hmmm.

short and sweet

yeah not too much has been going on. my ex left for london (see facebook for ensuing drama and shit) aaaaaaaand i'm getting lots of shit done, taking care of business, and so forth. meanwhile accruing copious gamer points on Xbox live lol.

Deus Ex: Human revolution, Just Cause 2, Final Fantasy XIII-2, and Farcry 3 are all on the playlist. Shit's grooving~

much love, sportsfans~