You know you ain't enjoyin the game if ur usin Blue Mage...

so damn nervous and on-edge these past couple years, I swear to God I'd rather be homeless anywhere else than couchsurf, even, anywhere down here... I've officially made a scourge of myself, down here in the desert... nothing but darkness comes easily. and that, with the twisted ever-overshadowing memory of light...

still ain't finishin Wheel of Time series- I go at my own pace! You have problem?!

I miss the HELL outta Final Fantasy XI

That's all I gotta say- sometimes I'll be walkin around  n just rehashing the hell outta all the awesome times I had... So many people say it but it can't be stressed enough- FFXI around ps2 release and the next like five years after, were probly the best years of MMORPGing since the original Everquest was out and Dungeons and Dragon-tier level nerddom/remoteness~

I daydream of playing again, no-holds-barred, with my friend Brad again... Man I miss it so much... miss everything about being with my old friends...

I daydream, too, about going back to Flag, and singing on stage at some bar all my friends just happen to walk into... and I can't find tears for anything else in my life but the swelling of sentiments that surges through m... so much hope still remains, so much optimism... but not here... not where I am, now.
It's like I'm being 'payed' to pacify my own natural inductance~
If I was back up in Flagstaff, so much more would be alive in my life, in the world, these days...

I will return~ I will see them all again, and songs will be sung.

But if I could get into a pad and feel secure enough to get into Final Fantasy XI again, or hell just play FFXI at all, anyways~ Fuck it, FFXI is goodfeels like no other~

Siren, or Sylph server, last time? Valaquwnta~ aye you can solo with Trusts and with an LS like that wouldn't even feel like less than a party, like the old days~