The Flow of Things

Ya know, a long time ago I thought love was something that you acquired on your way to greater, more nobler, broader things...

Now, it seems that even the stepping stones I took for granted as a youth in my daydreams are quantum leaps of monumental proportions...

I try as I try, and I cannot find love for the life of me... it is in front of me, all around me, and in everything I see, but I can have no part of it. Truly, it is... mmmm.....

I've given myself to the flow, almost entirely. I've just surrendered myself to the gambling hands of fate. I don't stress about anything, really, anymore.... I don't spend much time wondering what I'm going to do, or how I'm going to do it. I just act on impulse for the most part. It's pretty nuts but honestly it's liberating to the extreme. I have absolutely no regrets. And I often experience magical, insane, awesome things as a result =)


Well I have court on the 30th. Can't fight that. Don't know how it's gonna go. Not really worried though. Just gonna stroll up in my best gear and hope the boss has the sense to withdraw before i whoop its ass.

I'm not afraid of anything... I can learn from any experience, draw value from the smallest rock. I must admit, though. I'd much rather face the confinement of this planar cell than the cell that awaits me back in county lol.

I've learned a lot of things, already. There's just so much more to master... it'll take lifetimes to complete, and more than that to hone in efficacy. But where there is faith there is possibility, and I do not have a lack of faith... No, God willing, I am not so blind...