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I've been away from the keyboard for faaaaaar too long.

My life has been so damn chaotic and askew, I haven't had any real opportunity, it felt like.

Life... momma mia. So much has changed. So very much...

As I get older, I found myself more capable of reflecting the inherent beauty i find in the world around me. It's been a long process, and it started with me believing that I was this ugly, no good rotten punk who deserved nothin...

Things have changed so much. Since being with Becca out in Indiana, and the military for a few months in Fort Jackson, and then coming back to flag... hell, before that, i was pretty much just living off the reverberations/ripples of my past years, mainly high school.

Fuck. I thought I knew what love was. I actually went around, prancing like some new age shaman/ Castaneda-cultist, a genius too in love with the world to attempt any contact with it... it was a lonely lonely past couple years, I tell you what...

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Look, I'm here to talk about love. Ok. I'm in love right now. I'm in love with a girl who calls herself Walter Richter Cheek. She is the love of my fuckin life... It's so friggin weird, like, we click so fuckin well, it's insane. I have the feeling that this is the girl that I'm going to spend the rest of my life with... and I don't mean it as a dream, as it was with Rebecca of Anderson, Indiana...  I mean, I can see him looking at me for as long as I can see the light... for as long as I can... God,I love this woman. Even if she is a man. I don't care. She brings me the most satisfaction and contention that I have ever felt in my life... it's like thinking you learned how to breath, only to have it shoved in your face and shown how you don't really know... like everything you've done so far is just a joke, and this is the real thing.

I can't wait to wake up every fuckin day. I can't wait to face the new challenges that await us. We are an unstoppable force. We can do this shit. We can do it, and we can do it while looking pretty damn good at the same time...

Idk, I'm really drunk at Cline Library, drinking wine and just reminiscing... man I love Chardonnay.