Bye, Bye Miss American Pie...

This one goes out to the one I love....
This one goes out to the one I LEFT, behind...

Seriously though, how long has it been since I had a serious blog?

I got a bottle of some GOOD whiskey for once... laugh all ya want, children~
Jim Beam don't take no names..!

xD I know, coulda got Jack Daniels, which is way more classy and tasty, or I coulda gone the other way and gotten Southern Comfort, Ten High, Seventy-Five South (do they even have that outside of Flag lol). But the shopkeeper talked me in to buyin this stupid bottle with a complimentary Kid Rock CD, so I put the CD by the kids' stereo... at least it's gentle rock, it won' convert them to Punk or meth lol. I know that's what their mom thinks about everything...

God I swear this place is haunted... it creeps me out, man... something always follows me from the bathroom to my room, like... whew I can expect it, freakin a...

So I'm living with this nice chick, Daniele, and her awesome sons Julian and Jona. They're seriously the coolest little dudes I've ever known lol like, I couldn't have asked for cooler little brothers =)

It's weird how, when kids are a part of your life, you have this energy, ya know. It feels great! I mean, I love playing with these kids, man, it's really awesome! lol I bought them a bunch of legos, and I can't wait til I can buy them something that'll really make them happy! They can use it- I don't know, it just seems whatever's going on with this lady and her husband, it really bums them out and she needs to move forward and cut those ties off, if they're just going to weigh her down. Garrr harsh reality, but truth is truth~

School is going good. I'm very diligent with my coursework and my studies.  I like playing in the high-A range, it's the way to be, word~

Thing is, I have a lot of complication going on right now with my whole religion... but before I get to that, I wanna touch up on some Genealogy that i've been doing.

So I subscribed to this ancestry site... got very few days left to use it...


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Man I got way absorbed into that genealogy stuff... I gotta say, this life ain't all that bad, man.  I was a disgruntled little shit, for most of it so far. And I'm sure I will have my ups and downs, later, as well.

But for the most part... man. You can't beat it. You just can't beat it... Life is good here on planet Earth... especially in America...

Ahh. Which brings me to the next thing I wanted to... peel like an orange lol.

This whole religion thing, man. It really blows my mind, and at the same time, it makes perfect friggin sense.  Actually, the universe in general is really lining up for me, these days... lol I know that sounds like the most faggotry weird thing to say, but honestly... I don't know. Shit's just fitting like it should.  Things are just... yeah. well you get the point. 

I've started to move in a different direction with my life... It's really weird, to think about how radical the change is from who I was to who I am now... but truly, as that one cat once said in that black and white Christmas movie- 'Ahh, well ain't it a wonderful life..?'

It truly is...

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So... the thing is, I really digg the mormons. They're extremely honest, and they truly practice the teachings of Christ and the prophets. And what's cool about Mormonism, is that they continue the lineage of what happened in the biblical times.  Thus, they relate to present times a lot better than christians, or catholics, etc.

Yes, Mormons can be seen as pushy. But don't they go away if you tell them to? What does it tell you about someone's beliefs when they are willing to travel door-to-door, like Jehova's Witnesses, just out of pure compassion..?

What's funny is, I see a lot of Christians espousing what it is to be Christians, and ridiculing those who do not fall into their criteria.  They will tell you straight up- if you don't do this, then you're going to hell and you're not worth my time, yada yada..

Mormons actually practice the word of God.  They believe that there are prophets among us! They believe that America could be the new Zion! I mean, talk about tangible! That's a true faith- one that is applicable to the present times, and the present people.

Yes, I do believe that Mormons spend way too much time talking about spreading mormonism and programming church propaganda. The same can be said about any church... Well, actually there's this church I've been going to, it's a non-denominational church.... and... honestly.... the most beautiful thing happened the other day. Maybe it's correlated- idk- but I donated $50 to this church, because I truly loved and appreciated them, and what do you know..? Next Sunday, some guitarist who toured with the Grateful Dead shows up, and he plays 'Ripple', and me and him are the only dudes in the whole church singing... and honestly, that just felt like divine intervention... I even went up to him afterwards but he seemed preoccupied with other cats so I just thanked him for his beautiful music and asked for God's blessings upon him....

Man... It was so amazing....

Yet, when I went to the Mormon church, I was greeted by a different shade of human... I was greeted by the side that earnestly strove forth, the side that did not falsify or diminish the weakness of man... rather, they shared their open wounds and said 'this is all I am, that I know of'  and I was more touched by them than even the 'Ripple' rendition by that guitarist at the non-denominational church... It wasn't as pretty, or as gentle, or as forced as his rendition... one thing that really bothered me, was- he changed the lyrics; at the very end, he said 'Yes I know the way, I will take you home'... and it seemed so cocky, so arrogant! It's like pissing on Jerry Garcia's face while he's crying, for God's sake! And I realized that the non-denominational church... it wasn't humble.

Well, those are my thoughts. I'm truly tired... I just wanna lay down and go to sleep. This is too much for me... though I wish I had a sweet gal next to me to hold as I fell asleep, rather than this old pillow....