I waited my whole life...

to fall in love...

...yet it was only when I surrendered to the possibility that I would be alone for the rest of my life, that love found me...

And it wasn't a perfect love- is any love perfect? or anything-? yet I digress... so it wasn't meant to be, ya know... so i went on my merry way and sure enough, with little effort, i found love, again, and it met me equally, and i learned a shit ton lol. and that love lasted a while...

and that, too, was ill-fated... despite my intentions, it floundered...

man i'm like really not even getting close to skimming the bare essence of what really happened or the immense seas of emotions that i swam in either of these relationships, but alas, a tale for another time, eh...

so... the other day i went out on a limb and reached out to a fair lass~ =)

(understatements be the frequency of this wave, it seems lol)

aaaaaaaand today we went on a date... and i had a pretty good time =) i really was pretty comfortable around her, and sure i probably blabbered on like a friggin idiot for way too long >_< garrrrrr... but she was patient and composed, yet receptive and outgoing... very balanced...

mmmm i walked her home, and honestly i wished we were going home together, it was so nice being with her... she was sweet... so sweet lol... i asked if i could kiss her cheek, and we hugged (a lil awkward at first) and i kissed her anywhere i could (right on the side of her head i think xD yeah i'm real romantic...;_;) and i held her tight... she held me tight... it felt really good... so we looked at each other for a second, and I moved forward and we kissed...

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....lol...

so needless to say, ahhhh i definitely hope we see each other again.  after all the crap i've been through, it's kinda hard for me to honestly get my hopes up about this kinda  stuff... but...

a negro can hope, eh.