In lieu of love, this lover, hissing

I feel like such a hypocrite...

I stopped reading Robert Jordan's The Wheel of Time Series at like book nine or so because the characters started acting differently- it just wasn't the same story anymore... I felt betrayed...

And now the new Naruto is going the same way; the show is not the same as it used to be, I can't really explain it.

Yet my old friends surely felt the same way when I started to change- it's no wonder they didn't want me to be a part of their lives; how can I blame them for doing what I myself am guilty of?

Maybe it wasn't just them who turned their backs on me... it's not like I'm still chasing after them.

I really have changed; half the time I'm not sure I even like who I am, myself.  I guess I'm the same as everything else; I can be as ugly as I can be beautiful, like this world we live in.

It's not a cop-out to stop evolving, and stop growing, but it's a truth that's persisted despite everything else I've learned- a truth that's flowed largely beyond my comprehension until the years have started to bring it closer to me, or me closer to it.

...one thing is for certain- I don't care if the new Naruto's changed... I have to keep watching lol.

Hmmm... now that I think about it... I suppose this stone's skipping may be from farther shores than I'd imagined... Hell I remember my first stand-out, true-blue friend- my childhood friend Brandon... He must hate my guts for going off the rails on an emo train and becoming a friggin hippy.  But I will always remember the great times we had together. I could fill all the pages of this blog recounting the adventures we had... maybe someday when I have more time than troubles (or become even better at balancing the two) I'll do just that... sit down and recapitulate those experiences... turn on the flashlight and walk down those creaky basement stairs to coat my lungs in the dust of those old memories...

Jesus Christ I'm twenty-five years young and still have at least twice that many more memories to make... garrrr and the subtle balance slows the pendulum to a stop for one timeless, breathless moment again...