Can you give me sanctuary..?

Man, considering how intensely sober I've been lately, I've really been enjoying life! I can't believe it... Finally things are actually leveling out for me ^_^

It's such a good, genuine, warm, enveloping and engrossing feeling- to know that all you are and all you've accomplished is a result of YOU and not some drug or chemical. So cheesy, I know. But God damn call me swiss and mozzarella my cheddar lol.

Clarity brings with it a certain gravity. It's probably what I've been avoiding... the weight of my intelligence... it's something I haven't wanted to burden myself with. But I hadn't realized that intelligence is useless without wisdom- like finding ways to deal with these problems without becoming a bum, douchebag, or mooch.

It's scary stepping back into my own shoes and stuff ya know. Not being all dexed out and high as an excuse for my awkwardness and stupid mistakes. My imperfection.

We're all imperfect- none of us is ideal~ what is sought after, what is idolized, is later torn from the wall and banned like Nazi book burnings or the Crusades, or the Spaniards, etc.

He died a confused man, killed hisself with his own mind~
Fuckin love Sublime.

Yeah I feel really good. I don't have a job. I'm looking at two impending court dealios, and I'm probably fucked. I've been real sketchy with going to classes so idk if I can get my certificate before I meet with the prosecutor next.

I might have to ask my awesome-as-fuck group leader, Joy McCoy, if she can come testify or something on my behalf lol. God I'd have to take her out to eat for sure after that one. God bless that woman, she is truly doing God's work. Every day I see her, she is so ebulient and warm, and outgoing and friendly~ she is such a gentle spirit, God bless her soul~

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