Operator

I swear, everything I do is just .... bound to be fucked in the ass at some point.   No other way to talk about it- it's a predatory environment, that's for sure.... what's funny is, I thought that since we were human beings (capable of higher understanding, cognitive expression/capacity, and emotional intelligence), I thought that we were supposed to be getting along a LITTLE better than we are right now.

Short point is- I rate this world pretty low right now. Pretty friggin pathetic, this direction we've turned. Who allowed this? Who allowed the wealth to knot and clot like it's just waiting for the next big heart attack?! These old motherfuckers better get their shit together- just because they're old I ain't excusin em for bein incapable.  They should know their place-

Well it's a wasted heated breath; even if they have new guys/ young cats coming in, as long as they embrace the old doctrines they might as well be friggin dinosaurs.  Fuckin lizardmen, all of em should be tried and executed for crimes against the American people.

I just blew a bunch of money hangin out with a gal that probly didn't even appreciate how much I sacrificed just to see her... what's more frigged up is, I'm sure she could claim the same damn thing... friggin textbook Christians man...

Thank God I'm on the pure dexation and no longer am a syrup-swillin lizard! Thank God... I may have another year on Earth because of this (yay? >_>)

Honestly, at this point I think the devil would walk up to me and be like 'yo why are you so happy here in hell?'
'oh you came from Earth, holy shit... ' *does hail mary*
''have a drink bro, take it easy... holy shit that's a pain in the ass!'

somethin like that...

Still, I keep trying for this damn degree. I don't care if it takes so many friggin years- at least I enjoyed em.
I don't care if it racks up so much debt- I can eventually destroy 'em~
I don't care if they doubt me, say I'm a fool-
I'm gonna keep keepin on, so you better grab a stool~

It just bothers me... who would I rather have children with..? A woman that ... nah I won't even get into it. But, God damn, man...

I'm gonna seriously put that shit down and focus on my career; let it be a dream inside my head
A restless ambition that is daft... overfed...

'my rider left up on a midnight flyer...'

friggin Grateful Dead man....


It's a damn shame that I'ma keep persisting til I burn out; thought someone would've had it up to here with me by now lol. Fuckin A.

This blog itself is pretty funky, because I don't update it regularly enough for it to be credible, yet I update it.  

What's fucked up about the universe we're in, is that darknesss is the prevalent entity! Seriously- darkness is the only thing that persissts until some 'star' decidesd to brighten shit up!



Here's what I don't get... I love my friends... old and new... but... that love ain't strong enough for the old ones to be back in my life again... guess it's just like me and my sisters- neither of us (our parties) really gave enough of a shit about the other, I guess. That's what it all boiled down to.  How selfish we are, versus how much we're willing to invest in other people... and I guess, after everything we've all been through (in our own unique ways that somehow coincided) we just decided that the end profit was not worth the investment.

Can't say I blame em-I'm pretty disgusted with myself, sometimes... still, I can't expect the same from them.

Pretty much it's all just bullshittin around the same god damn bush, and I grow sick and tired of it unlike some cays.  I mean, I genuinely wish for a change.

Well, here's another heaping helping of a whole lot of nothin'.  Heissenberg would be proud- I'm sure.Pretty much my sentiment is- the way yall treat me, and eachother- yall be lucky if i decide to stick around long enough to fix your shit. Cuz goddamn this shit is broken as fuck!

All in all, guess I ain't got too much shit to complain about though, lol.

...just, if I was with the higher ups, I would do things a LOOOOOOOOT differently! and that's why I'll never be there.



I don't know... after I typed that I had a sharp vision of a world where such is possible... that a man can be a representative of the people without having to buy into corporate or political bogusness.... when a man is asked 'are you a democrat or a republican?' and he can just say 'IM AN AMERICAN, DUDE!'  Something like that. I don't know... I've been sayin that shit and preachin it on the streets for a good minute lol