Just Don't Feel Too Good or Bad

What's new with me today eh?

Well to start with...

I've done only less than half of what I usually do in terms of drug usage both today and yesterday... been doing a lot of stretching and working out. I've also been eating pretty good...

Applied for a couple more places online for jobs. I wish I could just get hired somewhere, doing fukkin anything. I wanna make some money so I can get a guitar, a computer, and some games... God damn... I'm so fuckin bored out here at my girlfriend's place. All I have is her fuckin laptop to get on, and her sister's Xbox but she's usually on it or using it at her friend's house. And then my girlfriend gets pissed at me when I'm on the computer but there ain't shit else to do around here...

I don't have my usual inspiration to do dungeons and dragons or read or write >_< I just feel burnt out, like every time I start doing that shit I just think too much about it and it becomes a chore. I wanna play on Perfect World with Cody, my buddy in Flagstaff. He hooked me up with half a million gold and I'm pretty much fuccin set til max-level lol. I got a lot of hours to go and I can have totally pimped out gear the whole time. 

Being sober sucks, I've got too much brain power. It leaves me with too much brain power to think about negative shit, I just wanna get high so it preoccupies me and lets me be at peace.

We went out to these gas stations and this grocery store and pretty much the only reason I went out was so I could steal some cough medicine from this store, but then my girlfriend went in with me so I couldn't steal anyways. I wasn't gonna even do cough syrup tonight but she came home with two bottles and offered me one and it pretty much just flipped the switch in my head. Now I'm coming down from it and I just feel fuckin edgy... I know how easy it is to go and steal but I don't wanna let my girl down and I figure I might as well just stay here and be sober anyways... I'm just wasting time til I'm tired enough to fall asleep anyways =/

Just don't feel too good or bad, it's shitty. 

That's about it, later bloggety~