My waterfall

I was always taught that boy meets girl... fall in love, get married, and forget the world- 9 months later, sweet baby on the way- kiss him on the cheek, and life's OK!

I don't feel NO PAIN
I don't have NO TIME!

Man can I relate.  I really love this person but.. I just wonder, what kind of life will my kids have?

I shouldn't be one to wonder- I never had a father for most of my life, or a mother.  Shit's always been fucked up, and yet here I am with all these values and expectations.  So if a cat like me can exist lol then surely even kids raised in a non-linear household should still be able to be brought up right... ya know, all I think that matters is the amount of love they receive; regardless of the source, or 'gender identity' (which is quickly crumbling anyways, in today's society) then that's all that matters.

As long as they are brought up with love and acceptance, that's all that matters...

That's what I want to believe, but damn... it's still so hard for me to accept something like that...

I wish I could talk to someone about it... or a couple people, about it...

I always follow my heart but the odd thing is... my heart is leading me... well it's really weird lol. fuck!

Garrr why couldn't I have just had a simple life... momma pajama.