De Scriptor

Well I tried, again, to lay off the dexation and lasted like one day.  Woke up an hour before homework was due and went straight to the store... still got both of them in on time though.

Man a crazy thing happened last night... err, today... I had a really intense sensation/vision of selling my soul to the devil, so-to-speak.  It was an agreement of sorts, to attain all that I've wanted in exchange for... well it probably was just an illusion.  Still, it felt pretty real.

I did realize the extent of how dream recall can affect our waking consciousness... And I had some serious realizations regarding my own path.

I want to get the Castaneda books and read through them again- my main queries are Stalking, and Recapitulation...

Oh man... that reminds me... I had this other vision, it was clear and concise, fuckin precisely immaculate... I heard/felt/saw the lines of the world, so-to-speak... lol funny to speak of something so intense in such an offhand way, but honestly it was everything I thought it would be, which in itself was surprising.  There was so much life and activity I could barely focus on a specific part of it, much less glance at the whole thing (or what filled my narrow canal of perception), but there were many overt patterns, on a grand scale.  It really was as much hearing as feeling, or sight... vague in all regards but the glimpses of each, overlapping at an incredible speed, were staggering in their implications.

I can see how Castaneda can be seen as an embellisher of sorts... whether he was exaggerating the deeds of an old fogy or not,  great practical advice just drips from his writing, convoluted with his own exaggerations it may be.  In short, it's really good stuff- as good as a Bible, as far as I'm concerned, for teaching one how to live.  I'll let my words speak for themselves, though... I'll be rereading all of the eight main books over the next couple months (among other things I'll be reading).

Ahhh so much to do, so little freakin time man. So little freakin time...