Liquor : Beer :: Beer : Water

Above word association dealio presented by yours truly.

How is it possible.  Seriously.  How IS it possible, that my nigga ass can be so damn unhappy regardless of anything goin on in his life. Yes, his. As in, surely I'm not this pathetic man-child I see before me... Yes, before me. Because I'm so innately dissociated that I have to make an active effort to speak in the first person. Yes. First person. First person I see gonna get a foot in they vajayjay!

*snaps fingers blackly*

Holy hell. I think this is the most amount of money I've ever had and not fuckin blown right off the bat, ever.  Usually I'd have gone out drunk/high as fuck and bought a guitar, or gone on an extensive blackout where I wake up grateful to still have a couple bucks and a non-soaked pair of pants laying on the other side of the puke pile. Well that only happened once but point is... well if you need that point pointed out to you, you might be a circle cuz you ain't too sharp!

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Yeah late night/ early morning over here... woke up on the wrong side of an overdose, again, too burnt out to live, and too burnt out to do anything about it... I'll probly consider typing this as 'progress' enough to warrant laying in the bathtub for an hour...  I don't know why but I feel like I can let go and sing in there... it's a feeling I'd like to nurture that's for sure... Wouldn't mind having a whole damn field of that feeling... It'd be A Feelding of Dreams...  Though waking up would be optional...

Hmm ya know what that sounds a whole lot like? Death! And/or life! Life is sort of like a dream, cuz we can wake up anytime we want but usually choose to just draw it out.  Perhaps death is similar... or maybe whatever force devours our consciousness dreams us...

Well that's probably going in to my rapidly-expanding (exponentially actually...) 'don't tell the doctor' folder. I should just archive that shit, or hell, just delete it... luckily we have the internet nowadays so I can just dump this shit out there, then if I ever need it down the road I can look it up...

Wow that is eerily too believable of a metaphor. Or, double entendre.

Man what if diseases and illnesses are merely the result of chemical poisonings in the very air, water, and food we process... Like a doctor goes on the news and says 'yeah there's one of these outbreaks in this region' when really it's just a result of a slip-up at hq or in the factory or some shit.