She lives on love street, lingers long on Alder

It's terrible, that you can give your heart to someone and have them reject it, as if they had seen the whole package deal and just said 'nah, you're shitty, i could do better...'

I guess it's how fat chicks feel when they get rejected solely on their weight.  They are usually beautiful peoples, man, but it's just a bummer. They either do two things-  lose weight, for whatever reason, or stay the way they are, and find someone who accepts them for it.  I guess in the end, it boils down to whether YOU are happy with who you are... are you content being a fatso? If so, more power to ya man! If not, then, Godspeed in your endeavors~ anything is possible especially now in this day and age.

We can do whatever we want in this life... I guess I should take it as a great sign, of things to come-! That I should find someone who sees me plainly and clearly and rejects me, yeah, then I should find someone who does just the opposite- not the reciprocal; I want my partner... well I guess it doesn't matter whether they see me in disillusion or not... that's their own journey... if I can be there with them, and continue on forward with them, then, hey that's righteous~ hopefully we can astrive to better clarify ourselves, together- our sight as we relate observances by squinting into the light of God's breaking dawn, so-to-speak...

Honestly, she gave pretty crappy head, though I was willing to instruct her further in the art of fellatio~ as I was a willing student in the object of her beautiful, warm, sweet and tight nectar-succulating clitoral veneration~

Aye, to give so much, yet be rejected so cleanly and precisely... hopefully the inverse, as I said before, is eminent.

I love her still... I truly do.  But she does not know what love is, nor how to love... it is a source of my great pain that I should allow her to slip through my grasp without emboldening her, solidifying the principles of my, nay, the universe's love in perpetuity~

For what are we but an edifice in the choral reef of love on the side of the colossal oceanic cliff between the known and the unknown~