The light side of the force

I'm catching up really well on my homework... I still have a crap ton to do- A couple essays for Sociology due by tonight, after my water cardio class I guess, and then by tomorrow night I have to have my Accounting problems done... those'll take me a couple hours after Bio tomorrow to complete.

God, I just gotta say, I love women right now. I just love the way their breasts are shaped, the way their hips curve, their tight perky asses and the mysterious creases of their crotch that just draw my gaze and make it difficult for me to walk anywhere without poking someone's eye out... I could stare at some chicks all DAY, I swear... I don't know what it is, I've been so fucking horny lately, it's fucking crazy... I've been out dancing the past couple weekends and even though I was like John Travolta out there, with everyone just like watching me and nodding and cheering and shit, I still couldn't get any action... I don't know what it is, I just ain't good at picking up chicks. I'm either too forward, or not forward enough... I got no subtlety, I guess.

I miss being with my exes, having steady sex and shit... just not having to worry about it, I mean that was such a big advantage for me... just knowing I could hook up with them at any time and have a real good fucking, shamelessly enjoyable time, for both of us- it was nice. Sometimes I'd treat them extra good and give them lots of attention, sotospeak, and other times I would bluntly (al beit shyly) ask for the same in return... it was good shit though, ya know. The best was when I was living with my ex, Amanda, in our apartment. We had such good sex, God... I'd come home from work and get naked with her and just lay in bed while she got on the computer or watched me play Castlevania, or we'd play something together... that was the best man.

Things were going good with this Emma bitch too, although there was this kind of space between us that we never seemed to fill.  It was like we were each holding back something, I guess... but we had alright sex... We both could've probly worked on our oral game a little, but it was really intimate and fuckin sexy...

Me and Amanda were pretty tight, though. (Well she wasn't as tight as Emma but... OHHH xD how scandalous, I know I shouldn't post that kinda shit but... alas... truth is truth. It's my blog, go fuck urself) but seriously, me and Amanda were SO tight, that shit was great.  Just the way our eyes would meet, hell even when we weren't having sex, it was still just so intense and pure, meeting her gaze... I felt like I saw everything about her and just loved it, every time I looked into those eyes... and what's nicer is that i honestly felt like she was looking back at me and feeling the same way.... guess I was wrong though.

Well I gotta get to this water aerobics class. Time to hang out with some old freakin ladies n shit... hope there's some babes....  garrrrr well I'm going out with this awesome gal in Show Low right now, I really should keep my shit in check.  More about that later.... yeah, I'ma blog righteously bout that tonight.