The reason of all reasons

I've always had a problem.  Yeah, talk about being able to relate to someone, eh? Yeah, we all have friggin problems dont we. We either have a problem, or we have an answer. Or we can be like Buddhists, and say 'we have neither and in doing so are harmonious'. But most of us could use a little chicken or teriyaki sauce with our ramen noodles, rather than let it boil by itself all day on the burner.

I've got this problem right now... no, it ain't drugs... yes, it's fuckin, women. Hahah not fuckin women- actually I am pretty good at that; it's just women in general.  Or rather- trying to get a partner in my life.

Oh and yes, I've tried the gay route, and you know what-? Most guys aren't stunning enough for me to consider over a woman. For some reason, I just love the idea of holding a woman close, with her breasts squeezed tight against my chest... or nudging gently as I thrust my tongue between her lips and dart around like I'm gonna rent the place and I'm cleaning the baseboards at the last minute lol. Oh, and then afterwards i usually kiss her. OHHHH if you don't get that, it's cool, you just haven't had good sex.

One thing I love about sex is how everyone is unique- we all generally like the same shit but the specifics are oh-so important.

I guess it's the same as with everything else, eh.

>_>

You can either find beauty in the world around you, or darkness.  Honestly I don't think any of us ever get true control over that seemingly simple prospect; no one in this world can ultimately say they are in control of the vibrations of the world around them, for they would be Godlike in nature. In order to be aware of the surrounding emanations, in all its perplexity, we would have to be formless awareness, similar to a meditative state, minus the husk of a human form. So, aye, in order to attain that which we, as men, strive to attain our whole lives (oneness, inner peace, contentness, happiness, 'real love' etc) we would have to sacrifice our humanity, in the process! So, don't worry, people- if you haven't found happiness- it's not your fault; it is the very nature of man, as a contained, encapsulated pocket of awareness, to be aware of 90% of the world around him... and that nagging 10% (well sometimes this percentage fluctuates marginally, though it seems drastic to us at the time) well that nagging 10% that we just can't catch a glimpse of- it's a product of our own momentum. So don't worry... You'll get it when you die, bro. Til then, enjoy the ride.

**note- the 90% estimation is most likely less than half suggested percentage... but it's nice to be optimistic eh.